Word of the Day: April 7, 2010
Oops. I did it, again. I was so busy yesterday that I completely neglected to put one up so… here it is!
facinorous
adj. – extremely wicked; depraved; infamous
Yesterday, I Cried
So… I’ve been having a bit of a difficult time lately. There are a lot of things going on and I’ve felt so lost. I’ve prayed about it, but I’m a VERY private person when it comes to personal things so I’ve otherwise kept it bottled in. Like usual, the longer you hold things in, the bigger the explosion of emotion when all of your burdens decide they no longer can be contained. So, I cried and I cried HARD. I was about to write all about it, but I recalled this poem that summed up all of my feelings [and then some]. So, for your reading pleasure, Iyanla Vanzant’s “Yesterday I Cried”…
Yesterday I Cried
I came home, went straight to my room,
sat on the edge of my bed,
kicked off my shoes,
unhooked my bra,
and I had myself a good cry.
I’m telling you,
I cried until my nose was running all over
the silk blouse I got on sale.
I cried until my ears were hot.
I cried until my head was hurting so bad
that I could hardly see the pile of
soiled tissues lying on the floor at my feet.
I want you to understand,
I had myself a really good cry yesterday.
Yesterday, I cried,
for all the days that I was too busy,
or too tired,
or too mad to cry.
I cried for all the days, and all the ways,
and all the times I had dishonored,
disrespected, and
disconnected my Self from myself,
only to have it reflected back to me
in the ways others did to me
the same things I had already done to myself.
I cried for all the things I had given,
only to have them stolen;
for all the things I had asked for that
had yet to show up;
for all the things I had accomplished,
only to give them away,
to people in circumstances,
which left me feeling empty,
and battered and plain old used.
I cried because there really does
come a time when the only thing left
for you to do is cry.
Yesterday, I cried.
I cried because little boys get
left by their daddies;
and little girls get forgotten by their mommies;
and daddies don’t know what to do, so they leave;
and mommies get left, so they get mad.
I cried because I had a little boy,
and because I was a little girl,
and because I was a mommy
who didn’t know what to do,
and because I wanted my daddy to be there
for me so badly until I ached.
Yesterday, I cried.
I cried because I hurt.
I cried because I was hurt.
I cried because hurt has no place to go
except deeper into the pain that
caused it in the first place,
and when it gets there,
the hurt wakes you up.
I cried because it was too late.
I cried because it was time.
I cried because my soul knew that I didn’t know
that my soul knew everything I needed to know.
I cried a soulful cry yesterday,
and it felt so good.
It felt so very, very bad.
In the midst of my crying,
I felt my freedom coming,
Because Yesterday,
I cried with an agenda.
[Iyanla Vanzant,
from her book Yesterday I Cried:
Celebrating the Lessons of Living
and Loving]
Word of the Day: April 6, 2010
Whew. All caught up on the old wotd’s I missed. Now for today’s!
macrophobia
n. – fear of long waits
Don’t go trying to use your new found vocabulary word as an excuse. Macrophobia and impatience are not interchangeable!
Be back tomorrow with more useless vocab! =)
Word of the Day: April 5, 2010
Yup. Another tardy word of the day. Life beckoned me away from the MacBook. Sorry!
Word of the Day:
gallionic
adj. – indifferent; careless; irresponsible
ex. My gallionic disposition towards my “word of the day” responsibilities caused me to lapse for 2 days. =)
Word of the Day: April 4, 2010
I know. I know. How can I put up a “word of the day” two days later? Like this!
Word of the Day:
galeanthropy
n. – the delusion that one has become a cat
ex. Her galeanthropy causes her to frequently lick herself clean and chase lasers on the floor.
Word of the Day: April 3, 2010
In keeping with the concept of “daily”, here is the next word of the day.
quidnunc
n. – gossiper; inquisitive person.
Word of the Day: April 2, 2010
So, I wanted to start this yesterday, but I figured it was April Fool’s Day and there was enough buffoonery going on. I like obscure words so I figured I could share my sesquipedalian tendencies with you all =)
Word of the Day:
cacogen
n. – an anti-social person
Now go forth and make someone feel imbecilic with this completely unnecessary word!
True Life
So, I haven’t really said much about the episode itself. I love the fact that we were able to share our story with the MTV viewing audience. It would appear that the syndications of the episode have received more viewership than the original episode itself. I didn’t realize it would be so… popular. Since the original show aired, I have done an interview with Complex magazine and been featured on other websites that had their own opinions of the show (my fave). The recognition is surreal. I never thought that so many people would tune in. Corey and I have been recognized everywhere from the mall, Auto Zone, a nurse at the doctor’s office! It’s always unexpected, but I’m beginning to get quite used to that familiar stare followed by whispers of, “I know her from somewhere…” Thanks for all of you that tuned it. One thing that I do ask is that you take it with a grain of salt. Filming occurred over a 4.5 month period for total 21 minutes of my story on TV. Things were edited and watered down and/or played up to make the most dramatic story possible. Corey and I play video games together ALL the time; he’s faaar from anti-video games. In fact, we met at a Halo 2 tournament. Also, Barry from the episode got his gamertag tattooed on him. I worked at GameStop when the show was being filmed. These are things they opted to leave out, so please don’t forget that it’s TV, not 100% how things are. Til next time…!
So… Here’s a bit of a life update! I have been busy deleting “friends” on Facebook. Someone told me that I was being rude, inconsiderate, mean and cold-hearted by doing this. Let me make it clear: I am NOT deleting anyone that actually talks to me, comments my pics or my page, etc. I am ONLY deleting people that are serving as space-fillers in my friends list. They don’t talk to me. They don’t comment me. They are just there… They are taking up room that people who actually desire to be my friend could be using 
Therefore, they are going BYE BYE BYE!!!
Therefore, they are going BYE BYE BYE!!!Oh yeah, I FINALLY reached 500 followers on Twitter. Maybe it’ll be 1,000 by the end of the summer?
TTFN!
-Charisse Nicole
Fourth of July Weekend
So… This weekend was a LONG one. On the 4th, Corey and I celebrated by going to my mother’s house and spending time with my family. My mother and I wound up surprising Corey with a late birthday celebration (his bday was June 24). It was great and that red velvet cake was delicious! We finally came home and tried to wind down and relax. We watched a bit of the 5th Harry Potter before trying to go to sleep, but…
There were about 20-30 people in a group at our pool shooting off fireworks! Mind you, fireworks are ILLEGAL in NC so this was already irritating in and of itself, but add to the mix that we were waking up at 5AM, our apartment overlooks the pool, and the were drunk and playing beer pong… I was NOT happy. The pool closed at 10PM, but they didn’t leave until 1:45. I had to call the cops TWICE and I even got into it with one of the guys in the party who isn’t even a resident! Oh well. I’m gonna try to get the resident evicted. Don’t think I’m harsh, OK. She broke sooooo many of our neighborhood rules on Saturday that it’s not even funny. She clearly has a cavalier disregard for authority and has zero control over her rowdy, drunken friends so she either needs serious repercussions or she needs to be evicted. Period.
Going to the office a bit later to report all of this to management. I HOPE it goes as I desire, but you never know with stuff like this! Take care!
-Charisse Nicole
